Standing at the edge of understanding

February 5, 2014 Helen Terry

The feelings you get, that thinning out that comes from going into limbo, out to the edge of your understanding and stand there reaching, reaching into a thin layer of unknowns, stuff to swim through without body or substance, without breath, without substantiation or reassurance, never knowing where it leads or what it's made of, or what it'll be like, and you float and struggle and gasp, it brings nausea and fear, strange body functions and doubt - much doubt - it's like falling but never arriving anywhere, never hitting anything unless it's a new concept, just the fear of falling - but from this leap comes real creation, for when it finally arrives, when it lands, when it is grasped, gasped, inhaled, coaxed into existence, it's the craziest, most wonderful thing in the world. It's better than anything else. It's like falling in love not gradually but in a single moment. It is that moment of the realisation of love, not where it leads or how long it'll last or what it means, just the heart-beating, stomach sinking, painfully-grabbing moment of Yes! This is it - then it's gone and one lives with the taste of it having been. You always have some end result, but it always needs to be renewed, refreshed, never having the same original freshness of the first moment, the first kiss of creating.

Agnes Denes

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